Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Be Anxious for Nothing

Today we have hit the big 80. It is so hard to wait. Our agency says that the average wait time is 30 - 60 days.........all I want to do is scream "What about us?" "What about my baby girl?" But in my frail human state God comes to me and gently speaks soothing peace to my mind and heart.

While I was doing my Bible time last week I came across this verse and it was perfect for where I am.

Philippians 4:6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
The key here is to pray your requests and add some thankfulness to it. There have been (unfortunately) many cases for me to put these verses into action since I read them. I think He is trying to say, "Do you get it now? It really does work." And it does. Since I have been burdened by many things this past week I have had the honor of praying in this way and the peace does come. You have to believe that it will and it does. It makes whatever your circumstance is seem a wee bit smaller and at that point I will take anything! I am so blessed to be absolutely adored by my Heavenly Father. The same Father that is holding my little girl, who is so far away, right in His hands.
From this point on I am getting on with life. Adoption is a very consuming event. It can really take hold of all of you. And then those around you have very little of you. That is not how this is suppose to work. As hard as the wait is, adoption is really an amazing thing. I would do it again in a heart beat because in the end the reward is great and it will all have been worth what we go through and so much more. But for now I need to enjoy this time with the amazing family that is right here with me. I need to wait on God's perfect timing for the day that my husband and I will get to fly to China and meet our beautiful little girl!

1 comment:

Karin said...

Oh sweet friend...I am so proud of you! You will eventually see God's wisdom in this delay--but for now, I know the wait is hard. Enjoy your sweet family and before you know it, you will get that wonderful TA call. HUGS!!!